Emma Jabr

 EMPTINESS

“PARTED”

2019

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I made you from my womb, my heart, my soul

He put you in my vessel, to grow, to whole

In patience we delve until the day

You come into this world, for then we pray

But death came forth, to take you away

A tomb to rest, a tomb of clay

Faith made it so

Emptiness would grow

To fill the void, you left in me

Death missed you see

It should’ve taken me

For there is no thing I’d rather act

Than the bargain to which you remain intact

Mother of one, I cannot react

Strong I must be, I cannot contract

Sometimes I see you in the land of dreams

Under star light, in beams you seem

Floating in the sea of tears we’ve cried

Protected by our prayers, no need to hide

Arms wide

I run in stride

I long to be aside

With thee I collide

But touch I am denied

I awake, big-eyed

Euphoria subsides

And again, emptiness creeps in

A new day on the horizon begin

Smaller is the hole within

I thank God for your next of kin

May He protect her in her human skin

From all the evil of worldly sin

Leaving took you to heaven I’m sure

But parting is the hell I feel in my core

I’m forced to accept this act of gore

Remember for whom I am living for

Their little toes that which I adore

Some happiness and hope in me restore

I do not forget

I accept 

In hopes that we touch on the next sunset

I made you from my womb, my heart, my soul

He put you in my vessel, to grow, to whole

In patience we delve until the day

We meet you again, for then we pray

SPACE

“الفرح والحبّ”

2019

الفرح والحبّ
 
 

Space is a word that can be used to describe a range of physical expanses. While pondering on this subject my mind focused on the distance that separates me from my loved ones. That space, although it is more abstract than a physical territory with actual frontiers, is the most prominent one at this moment in my life. This led me to think about the correlation between sharing space and sharing other things. When I am home, I share everything with my friends and family, from the actual geographical locations and moment that we are in, to my time, food, material things, experiences and memories. With space, or with distance, the amount of things I can share with them lessens and slowly but surely the materiality in our sharing experiences becomes impossible and eventually even the more conceptual sharing dissipates as well. However, one thing that space cannot prevent me from sharing with the people that I live so far away from is; the sky, the sun, the moon, and the stars. 

In this interpretation of space, I paid homage to the constants in my life of sharing and in my geographical locations. Folded in the different frames, between those symbolisms are icons that remind me of the space I yearn to be in, elements that tie my eternal home to the new one I’ve found here in the States as well as refer to my continuing journey as a young adult. The heart, symbolizes love in the relationships that will forever be a part of my life and the ones that have yet to bloom. I incorporated an evil eye, as a plea of safety, health and prosperity to those I hold dear. The seagulls, remind me of travel and ‘leaving the nest’ but also refer to my home as a port city and my bedroom view of the sea. Lastly, the Arabic expression “al farah w al hubb”, halfway between a blessing and a wish, translates to love and happiness and represent the emotions I feel when I am home but evidently are also the ideal constants that I hope to find in any and every space I am in.

 

POWER

“LIGHTHOUSE”

2019

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There once was a boy, who lived by the sea. The waves were his playground, the seashore his home. The sun, was his father. His light would call him to play and, in his shadows, he would lay down to rest.

The boy laughed with the fish and danced with the wind and sometimes at night, he would sneak into the Lighthouse to listen to her many stories of exciting adventures. During stormy nights, the Lighthouse would shield him from the harshness of the outdoors and together, they would bathe in the calmness of many silent starry nights. With time, their bond grew strong and as the Sun had once done, the Lighthouse’s lamp would call him to play and, in her shadows, he would lay down to rest. 

The boy grew up to be a merchant and the waves that once were his sanctuary were now taking him away. As he rose for his first adventure, a sad sense of beauty stretched above the sun-kissed skies of Beirut. Only a few strong rays still crept through the billowy folds of the low-hanging cotton candy clouds. His hand rested on his tall strong companion, he sighed.

“Where are they taking me, the waves?” Asked the merchant.

“Anywhere.” Said the lighthouse smiling. “Everywhere.”

“I’m scared.” He replied. 

“Fear destroys more dreams than failure ever will. And believe me, on the other side of all fear is freedom.” she explained.

 “I want to stay here!” Exclaimed the merchant. “I have so much more to learn from you! So many of your stories I have yet to hear!” 

“I will not move, my dear, I am waiting for your return. You will travel far, and if you ever lose your way, my light will guide you through the tricky paths and towards a safer route. You will feast with the Irish and dine with the Dutch. You will see snow so cold it could freeze the sky. You will read books so big they will fill your mind. You will revel in sceneries so beautiful they will make you cry. You will meet people that will change your life. You will have adventures of your own. And when you come back home, you will tell me of them and I will tell you more of mine.”

A small weight lifted off the merchant’s chest.

“And when your boat is ready,” the lighthouse continued, “and your heart is full, you will leave again, to go onto your next adventure. You will come and go until you tire, until your knees buckle and they ground you into the earth, until your mind shines so bright it lights the night sky. Then, you will stand, as I stand, and stay, where I stay, you will be, as I am, a lighthouse for the rest of your days.”

The merchant choked back a sob, for in that moment, he was a boy again clinging to his home. 

“But I will be alone, and you will too!” he cried.

“Never!” She reassured. “You are my light as I am yours. I have no purpose if not to guide you, and you cannot navigate without me here. Neither of us can be without the other.” 

“And only with your love, can I touch the sky…” The merchant whispered. 

As the last signs of the day hid behind the horizon, the merchant reached the edge of the sea, a ray of light escaped the lighthouse’s eyes and fell across his path, as a tear would fall across a mother’s cheek…